Day Thirty Two

Yesterday's post was about long distance relationships, and following along the same topic, I went to my friend Bre to guest write for me today about her story. Her relationship, however, is quite a bit different than mine...

Being a teenager and in love is one thing, you have people telling you that it will fade or “ AWW you don’t know what love is!” and you want to just tell them to shut up because you believe in your feelings. For me, I deal not only with that, but the fact that the person I am in love with is a female, just like me. We have the same body parts and we both experience our monthly friend in the same week, but for me it isn’t about that. I am in love with my best friend, the girl that I met 4 years ago in period 2 geometry class on October 10th and the girl that I have been with for the last two years in a monogamous relationship. It’s a really hard thing being a lesbian couple (I am a lesbian and she is bi-sexual) - not only do we get dirty looks when we hold hands while we grocery shop or when she gives me a kiss after we go out for dinner on a date, we get glares and scuffs, but none of it matters because I love her.

My first girlfriend, ahh! she kept me her secret for 8 months. She never held my hand or kissed me in public, and when someone asked her who I was she would say,” Uhh… This is my Friend! Yeah this is Bre.” She was bisexual and not out to her family and not only was I her secret, I was her emotional toy. I mean you would think that after you fall in love for the first time, that everything would be perfect… NO THAT BITCH WAS CRAZY! I found out she cheated on me with two guys and my best friend who was a girl… SLAP IN THE FACE! She is now 20 and in a relationship with my old friend and they decided to have a baby together. I got over it like any heart break and now I am happy with Nakita.

She is a very interesting character … She and I argue, bicker, hug, kiss, talk, cuddle, bike, cook, and everything else a heterosexual couple does. She came out to her whole family for me. She doesn’t see me as a woman or a man (I identify as a woman and go by female pronouns), but she sees me as a person that stole her heart.

She went off to college and she now

lives 931 miles away, 14 hrs and 30 minutes by car without traffic and 2 hours and 15 minutes by plane if the weather is good. Her home is now Colorado while I am stuck in Minnesota, away from the person I am in love with. It was soooooo hard the first month - we broke up 3 weeks after she was there because we couldn’t handle the emotional pull the distance had on us, but we fixed everything. She came back for a week and let me tell you that I don’t cry, but when I dropped her off at the airport I never cried so hard in my life. I was not only saying goodbye to the girl I love, but to my best friend. She came home for winter break and I never felt so alive - we did everything together like old times and then she had to leave back for school… I had to say goodbye to her for another 72 days, not including my spring break that is coming up in March.

Nakita and I have been on rocky terms because I recently got accepted to her University and my top choice which is Lawrence University. Nakita and I have a three year plan:

YEAR 1: Go to college together.
YEAR 2: Live together and get a puppy.
YEAR 3: Get engaged and plan the rest of our lives together.

We talk every day and even if we are mad at each other, we can’t go a day without talking. Every morning she is the first person I text and the last person even if I want to kick her in the face. I want nothing more than for that plan to work out and for me to spend the rest of my life with her. I may be 18 and maybe naive, but I want nothing more for that plan to work out. The problem is that I probably will be at Lawrence next year and it will be so hard for the long distance to work out, but we have done it thus far and we are going to try next year.

Nakita and I are like any other 18 and 19 year old couple, whether that be a boy and a girl or even two guys. We love each other unconditionally and I know that even if her and I don’t work out when I go to Lawrence next year, that we will meet up later on in life and have a cute little curly haired girl or boy together and get married like we planned.

She is forever going to be my best friend, that’s part of the reason we got tattoos together. Hers is a Minnesota outline that has a purple heart where we live (my favorite color) and mine is a Minnesota outline with a red house where we live (her favorite color). We argue, we bicker, we get mad at each other, we cry, we yell, we smile, laugh, joke, cuddle, hug and kiss… We are normal and in LOVE and nothing but that matters, not even our gender, it just makes us more interesting ;).


Bre also blogs :) Read more of her writing here:
techitout001.blogspot.com