Except, ya know, I'm taken too. Most of the relationship I have with Sam right now is over the computer though. When I tried to explain that to someone the other day, this was literally the comment I got back - "What are you doing wrong that you have to resort to online relationships?" First off, asshole, I'm not resorting to anything, this is my first choice, certainly not my last choice. And second, why does my relationship have to mean I'm doing something wrong? If anything, I think I'm doing something right. I've committed to someone I love, knowing that we're not going to have an easy relationship, and have kept that commitment. I don't see anything wrong there.
The hard about having a relationship with Sam isn't staying faithful nor is it being apart for so long and still maintaining our feelings for each other. It's having those feelings for each other and not being able to do anything about it. It's not being able to be a part of each other's lives. It's having people constantly question your relationship and try to convince you it won't work out. It's the complete lack of understanding from most of the people around you. My personal favorite is when people complain about not hanging their boyfriends and how loooooong a week is without seeing them.
When/if Sam deploys, I won't see him for nine months - that's about 38 weeks, or the length of a school year. How's that for perspective? I understand missing your boyfriend, even if it's only for a week, but I am not the person to bitch about it to.
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